Starting over is scary...scary as hell.
I received a phone call from a dear friend. She is in a situation that she knows she needs to leave; but fear has her frozen. I've been there. I stayed in an unhealthy realtionship way past when I should have ran for the hills. Fear is not only a powerful motivator; it's also a formidable wall.
When I spoke with her, I reminded her that it could be done, that I was in the process of doing just that, and yes...it is scary as hell. The unknown is a place of unknown dangers but it is also a place of yet to be discovered joys.
Taking that leap is scary as hell. What is courage? Being afraid and doing it anyways. You can always imagine a million reasons why the status quo is the safest route. Those same million reasons are also the same as to why you should go. And yes...it's scary as hell.
I tempered my advice with the disclaimer that it was coming from a bonehead (me) who had made some hideously horrible choices. I survived intact and the peace I now enjoy is greater than any fear. I won't lie, the fear still pops up its ugly head now and again but moving forward is the cure. It is scary as hell.
Take the leap. I promise you will grow wings on the way down. And yes...it is scary as hell. It can be done.