Yesterday I shared my losses of 2013. Today I want to share the gains and growth I've experienced in the past year.
I have gained self-confidence. Starting college at age 50 is a terrifying thing. I've learned to trust in myself and my own abilities. This is a much bigger thing that it sounds, as my divorce completely destroyed my self-confidence. It's back...and so am I.
I have grown strong. Not physically, but emotionally strong. I am no longer willing to be treated as less than what I am worth. It may seem I have grown hard, but that is merely my refusal to tolerate those who feel the need to criticize, demean, or diminish me in any way. I no longer have the time or patience. I now know I am good enough.
I have grown braver. I drive farther, do more things alone, and handle things I never did before. A lot of that grew out of the aftermath of divorce; but some grew as the result of my growing self-confidence. Bravery is a self-replicating phenomenon. The more you exhibit the behavior, the more it grows.
While I have gained and grown much in the past year, I still have a long way to go. I hope you will join me on my continuing journey...it's going to be a hell of a ride!!