I've received a lot (read: a ton!) of questions from friends and family as to why, how, etc. did the divorce happen. The truth is, and as I've said from the beginning, is that I honestly don't know. It was not of my volition and the only answer I ever received was "You're my best friend but I want a change."
So what do you do with that? The answer is let it go. I'll never know any more than that. I know it frustrates everyone when that is the only answer I give but it's the only answer I have.
So why? I don't know. But does it even matter at this point? No. What's done is done. I've let it go. Don't get me wrong, I'm no superwoman. Sometimes it still hits me like a Mac truck. Feeling not good enough is a painful thing. I'm only human and I feel that pain. I'm too old to live in it and let my remaining life pass by.
So now you know as much as I do about the why. To those who are still frustrated and whose curiosity still isn't satisfied? Sorry...nothing more I can do for you. For those looking for something juicy to gossip about or use to attack...Sorry, nothing I can do for you, either! It is what it is.
Onward I go. This is definitely a journey and I choose to view it as an adventure. I've heard all my life that everything is a matter of perspective. I stand here as living proof.