I believe part of why I stay so busy is avoidance. I have had a rough time the last five years; with a marriage ending, losing both my step-father and my mother; and an engagement broken. I moved from one state to another, was unemployed for a while, and went to college. If you have ever seen those articles that list the risk factors for a heart attack...yep, I'm there!!
Do I stay busy to avoid dealing with everything? I would say yes and no. I am well aware of everything that happened and its ongoing affect on me. Have I set time aside to delve deep inside? Nope.
I am not sure what purpose that would serve. It will not change what happened. I am aware of my own actions, my own part, and my own response in each event. Do I stay busy to avoid memories? Yep.
Is it avoidance? Maybe. It could also be that once the floodgates open, I am afraid I will not be able to get them closed. Busy is much preferable to bawling in the fetal position in the corner!!
Back to work for me...I'm busy!!